I turned one of the hardest decisions in my life into one of the best and I'm here to show you how you can too.

One of my clients once said that he thought I’d had ‘spontaneous sobriety’. From the outside looking in, I could see what he meant.

The reality was that I’d been internally struggling with not wanting to drink for years. I’d use running, sporting events and the birth of my son as reasons to stop drinking.

Often my commitment to these would generally last a few days, occasionally a week or two, and once I went 7 months sober.

Each time I reneged on my reasons to stop, the resentment, frustration and self-loathing I had towards myself continued to grow.

I continued to use alcohol to escape from how I was feeling, not recognising or wanting to recognise that it was a HUGE part of why I felt like I did.

I was never truthful with myself about the real reasons for wanting to stop.

The way I thought about myself, my capabilities and what life would be like without alcohol were not serving me. 

It was a daunting question, and I had little to no evidence of what life could look like otherwise.

Alcohol was the one thing that brought me a great deal of certainty about myself. I had a strong belief that I was a bloody good drinker. My reality suggested otherwise.

After many failed attempts at stopping through force or ulterior motives, I woke up on the sofa on December 28th with a raging hangover and asked myself "what the hell am I doing?”

I saw that I was turning into the man I’d always promised I wouldn’t be.

Enough was enough.

That day I decided that I couldn’t do this to myself anymore.

I committed to taking a break, and the rest is history, as they say.